mmm, how should i start this post. it's been a while since i write something (to myself) on this blog. perhaps a bit of catch-ups will do the trick.
MAJOR THING that flip my whole life upside down (or downside up) is i ended a relationship that i've nurtured for two-ish years. why? because i believe that love is knowing when to stop, knowing the right time to let go for each other's good. although there are some major heartbreak and aches and i can no longer keep it for myself since it hurts so very much, the result is worth suffering for. i'm clinging onto that and took it as a part of my journey that will bring me to some better place, some better person. that's the only way i could handle the tears.
The other thing is i'm currently in a state where i don't know who my bestfriends are anymore, not that they've changed that much. it's just, we're drifting apart & we're shattering. i started to see things differently and everything feels awkward and cold now. i tried to talk it up to them but nothing came up as the result & it's not getting better. once i thought that it's enough, time out, they're not worth these uncomfortable feelings. but then i have to remember, our relationship were not made of angers and dramas, we've had so many good times, & they're the one that get me through hard times when i'm not at home. they're the only family i had in this city & that's a keeper. i always remember a phrase "you don't get to choose who your family are, they're a gift that God sent to you." so the best thing that i could do for now is to let some adjustments get in our way for a while but still giving my best effort to support them. once a family, will always be a family, there's no such thing as ex-family, ayte?
and the last thing is, i'm about to enter the most beautiful relationship with the most romantic Man on universe that sacrifices Himself for me, for His children. never meant to sound too religious, but this is exactly the answer i've been looking for all this time. revelation much? i don't know. & i don't plan on rushing things on this. as long as it's good, that's my Man leading my way right here right now.
in conclusion, this Anne that write this post right here is not the same person you've met couple of weeks ago. loads of changes happened on my life and i always believe since everything happens for a reason, everything is worth suffering for :)
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